Saturday, 4 August 2012

Avigail's Story


I am 47 years old, I live in UK. I don't have any symptoms while I am taking my medicine, Risperidone 3 mg. I have taken it many years but the side effect are just too much, before that I had Zyprexa but I got an allergy from that so I had to change. I have been taking medicine since I got a psychosis eight years ago. Two times I stopped taking the medicine and every time the symptoms slowly returned in a few weeks. The symptoms I get is delusions, imperative voices telling me to do horrible things, horrible pictures in my mind (don't know if that is hallucinations?)There were not many symptoms, just a few, but it was enough to take away the joy in my life. Every time I left the my M.D’s office, I felt discouraged knowing that I would probably remain on medication with side effect for the rest of my life, and this that left me feeling exhausted and prevented me from participating in originally planned activities. I couldn’t function. There is no schizophrenia in my family that I know of. There was just one incident with my mother's sister who committed suicide at the age of 20, but nobody knows if she had psychosis. I think it is a wrong idea which I got perhaps eight nine years back. It was all from a spiritual experience which I don't understand. I woke up exactly at three o'clock several nights in a row, and then I was in the universe, one with all the stars, I was the universe, that primordial power. It was frightening and lonely and I tried to put the arm over my eyes, but still it came back every night. When it stopped I went up from bed, it was completely dark in the room but I knew exactly where the handle was. I went in the bathroom and looked at my face in the mirror, then all the wrinkles around my eyes disappeared in front of my eyes. Same thing happened every night. It was a strong experience and after that I believed that my soul was divine. Not that my personality was perfect, but that I was going to become that in my lifetime. With this idea in my mind I was vulnerable for negative forces, telling me that some people were bad and some were divine, and so on. These negative forces are the symptoms. The negative forces have most of all attacked my relationship with my children, and I still feel sometimes obstructions in my love for my daughter. (to loose that love is one of my deepest fears). I couldn't sleep without a very small dose of sleeping pills, Imovane. So it was this idea of being divine that triggers the symptoms, I believe. Thanks to Dr. Justin Rodwen Hill and his product (Consummo), for his timely intervention of his product, excellent counseling, support from my family and some prayer, I now consider myself a most fortunate “schizophrenia survivor.” I find hope in the darkest of days when I saw a testimony of people talking about Consummo on many blogs and how it has helped their loved ones. Is this a Miracle medicine or what? I started having series of thought; thereafter I ordered his product and started using it, the symptoms progressively got better as days turn into months. After months of treatment I stop having those thoughts, though I have not gone for any test yet for over 4 year now, I have never had any psychotic symptoms. It's obvious that I have been cure.

---Authoured by: Avigail, 2012